vespDtIn miSan

a hOmsiknas vEnz dIp wiHin Ic sOl;

an EkiN t bI sumwX els,

TrM H gEtwE v H mFnd'z F,

intM H fVcD dizFnz v a limitlas harFzan,

sumwX familiD wiHin nEmlas lAndz,

spYnd from H sIdz v kQntlas lFftFmz.

rimembDd soNz...

flOtiN on Xz v meladiz liNgDiN,

suN loN agO bF bIz in H Jq v

endlas sumDz fCs n pIliN,

unSEvan bF H kxl v pAsiN wEvz,

untuct bF Aksiamz v hVman konSans...

rikYld slFdiN sencDiz,

wen self-indulJans blosamd

intM opjUlans'z ilMZan,

wotct H sIzanz dizolv wiH men,

tUk stok v rivDz

empti in HX pAsiJ,

abzxvd it Yl from

dIp wiHin mF sOl-rizxv,

hOldiN lMs on a rFziN tFd, n

prEiN fP H klenziN.

rilIsiN mF intent imtM

H meditESan v rezalMSan,

F sarendDd t H itxnal nQ:

plAstik melt v borOd klOk rilIsiN

inkRnESan'z mAsk ontM H wEvz v

a sweliN tFd;

rI-diskuvDiN a kristal sOlm

stAndiN lFt... nEkid... frI,

a siduktiv pulsEtiN bIt,

wEtlas, jet fUl v H ventrikal

krimzan v mOmant -

Jq AbsalMt... endlas... bQndlas,

sOkiN itxniti'z sFlant wizdam intM

pAst, prezant n fVcD - VnFtid;

blMprint v H Vnivxs ilMminEtiN a siNgal

spRk v lFk, Yl-pDvEsiv unkandiSanal luv,

Yl-sIiN... Yl-nOiN... evriwX,

SAdOz v ignDant sxkanspekSan gon,

a mFkrakozam ritxnd t its mAkrakozam,

kamplIt At lAst.

F mMvd wiHin sQndz v Vnivxsal rApcD,

krEvd mVzik's imxJiN kulDz,

divOtid liNgDiNz t tIciNz ric n stedi,

wFld wiH V,

tageHD wiH V,

hOldiN jP sIzanz wiHin H hevi SAdO

v wot prIviasli F TYt F sY...

wIvd wiHin a klQd v Anti-mAtD,

mMviN bAkwDdz in tFm

t H rMt v mF sOl,

txniN H elamants in HX sIzanz,

OpaniN a wFdD konSasnas intM

H Vniti v bIiN,

hOldiN hOp wiHin H bUzam v itxniti'z sxkal,

flOtiN wiHin H FdOlonz v spEs,

abzxviN H wiHin entDiN H wiHQt,

IziN H mOmant in its meZD,

hOldiN sFlans in H pym v its vxs,

kAriiN H nVklias v wunnas hF on its tFd,

velvat vespDtIn pAsiJ intM inD spEs,

lMsiN dQts bijond lost inasans,

intoksikEtid bF fET's cild Xz,

kQntiN H mOmants bifP wMm'z rI-entri,

n Az F dremt v spIp

mF klOk kulDd solid in dFmenSanz stilm

tElDd sepDat, jet stict in wIv unsIn,

krosiN H bPdDz v lFt t foran lAndz,

familiD plEsiz bijond H Qt v bQndz.

awEkiN in a TQzand plEsiz F met Old familiD

fEsiz v frendz hFdiN in H vElz v tFm, n

multi-lEDd konSasnas.

wI Jqnd Az wun:

luviN, lAfiN, n gEziN At lFf'z endlas fAsats,

foliz n strFviNz,

drImiN pxpasiz unimAJinabal -

v distant plEsiz...

ekOiN drumz...

vqdiz in H nFt.

konSas slFd v slIp brYt trAvalD'z iskEp,

solid drImz tuct n SXd bifP mMviN on,

lugiJ sEvd from windz v nFt n dE,

memDi fEdiN bijond Ic tIziN vEl.

drImz n prED fPJ briJiz stroN,

t plEsiz wPmd bF rFziN X,

wX kXz R meltid in H endlas sun,

n tFm apCz not in H /bUk v /dEz.

dPz rimEn Opan fP H ded awEk,

stR trAvalDz rest, woc, n lxn,

H fFDz v lFf bxniN hF -

bijond H Opan skF,

but ilMZan'z lIp nevD kwFt kamplIt.

F Jqnd wiH kristal Atamz,

cRJd t tEk mI TrM stR gEtwEz

in H klC nFt skF,

fR bijond AstronamDz' drImz -

n jet sum mP - t /ilisian /fIldz,

a distant riAliti rIct in a mOmant.

F fel apon a kopi v QD triplikal wxld

flOtiN in tFmlasnas:

anuHD Atam in infiniti,

but wun v a cEn...

cEnz liNkt...

cEnz brOkan,

aljUDiN t an ilMZan v solidAriti,

Atamz tFd t Atamz,

wxldz tFm t wxldz, in an endlas skIm

v mistDi, nOn Onli t H godz,

HX bANkDz, n HX mPgiJIz in pazeSan.

F meltid dQn t an amPfas wIl...

nxcDd n grOn wiHin H bUzam v fFD,

kindald bF a god-sPs wiHin H flQD v

mF grMp sOl djUDiN H apoTiOsis v H /Omiga,

bikEm a kIla v a fFnFt Vnivxs,

n FdOlon on an elavEtid spC v lFf.

F flOtid alOn in H swxliN mists,

ingulfiN mF solid bodi on H ric nEtiv xT

v tFmlasnas.

n Hen kEm mPniN:

a brFt wEkaniN heraldiN a lAps intM unkonSasnas,

a wFd-Fd slIp - cEsiN ilMZanz in sAnd,

riAliti'z dP klOzd,

iksept t HOz trAvalDz kliNiN ontM tFmlas Vniti.

tFm n sunSFn bikEm wun

wiHin a VnifFiN pQD v rFcasnas,

Az a wFd-Fd nV dE unfOldid in sFlans.

destini'z kampOZD lE stroN, sarIn,

Ysam, jet VntFd,

kAndid bF H strIm v evDflOiN lFf.

F rOz bifP H tFd,

Rmz strect wFd,

tuciN H wYlz v mF lFf;

bxT fR left,

deT fR rFt,

inkRsDEtid prI-VtDO wiHin

imAJind pOstskript t lFf,

n fPplE v deT,

anuHD dE v lxniN,

wociN H tFdz,

HX wEtlasnas meZD rilentlasli pUliN mF

sOl-rizxv bijond H kYl v cAfiN foli,

intM H sIzan v mF bIiN,

brEkiN Opan mF tFm kApsjUl;

rilIsiN riHmik polan ontM

H sQndz v dizFD,

evri mOmant lMst t fil lFf's empti pAsiJ.

F pAst TrM H bAk v bijond,

TrM H biginiN v tFm,

intM H Aneks v pjUD TYt,

a pxfekt rEZIm

sent t pjUDifF

xT's negativ enDJiz,

F entDd on H tFd v /akwXias,

sO Az t stimjUlEt H plAnit t rimembD,

(bF divFdiN nFn pqnt stR bF sevan),

F rIset H tFdz,

txnd H wind,

n let Hem gO.

F woct snOflEks fYliN,

silUetid agenst a blAk skF

...Hen dF,

frI-fYliN stroN agen,

intM dYn sunSFn,

intM sumD nV.

a sumD v lFt,

but nO windz, trIz, bxdz, P krIcDz

wondDiN frI,

a sumD v drF wYlz fYlan,

but nO wYlman,

Onli HX stOnz left bihFnd.

in H blM dust mF lFf-kAmDa

rikPdid H nV EJ Az

H VnFtid sOl v H liviN ded

Opand riAliti'z lost dFmenSanz,

in sFlans.

siNkiN stRSip

F woct jP bAtal from mF windO,

senst jP dizFD in H pAsiN klQdz,

hxd jP krF wiHin H Ek v mF hRt -

H vqs v cEnJiz dAnsiN bijond

H krEviNz v imAJinESan.

V hAd kum t unfOld sIkrats t pIpal lost

wiHin HX fAntasi v noliJ,

but jP miSan hAd sakumd t mAnkFnd'z

def krFz v sorO,

lEst Az a fiSnet TrM H windz,

held wiHin H txnpFk v H klQdz.

lMsiN empti drImz intM tamorO'z itxniti,

V wx karest awE t inD wxldz,

diskRdiN H frMt v a hRvist lost t xT's

doliz furOd dIp wiHin fiskal sql,

jet H fOm-twistid wEk v jP tFd

giftid H viZan v jP flItiN vizit,

rifreSt H hOps v HOz wFd-Fd in slIp.

F ect mF hOps in lEz' iskEpiN Jq,

n Jqnd Hem t H salestial web -

a mesiJ plIdiN jP ritxn.

TrM H dRknas v mF flEm jP emiseri arFvd,

a blM sOlJD,

a sOl rApt in mDkjUDial velvat -

self-aSUDd ultramDIn,

wEtid bijond H tFd v AmbiSan'z twist,

kantent bijond H insidants v pEn,

trediN tFmlas in H noliJ HAt

ivencUali Yl wUd bI wel.

hx kAskEd v trMT fild mI wiH lFt,

rifreSt mF sensiz bijond H sIzan v H windz,

bihFnd H skPciN sun,

jet bifP Ytam'z cEsiN imbrEs.

F held it in mF rEz,

spYniN hx nolid intM H krevisiz v mF sOl,

jet Yl H tFm nOiN it woz mP HAn mFn t kIp,

runiN frI, spRkliN lMs

intM mAn'z sIzan v meni dEz.

V dolOd in stRSipz,

OpaniN mistDiz kRvd on xT'z harFzan,

rilIsiN H TYts v /galAktik /mAstDz

intM dEz bijond mAn'z drImiNz.

rApiN jP tYkiNz in sFlans,

sidVsiN us intM tFmlasnas,

dFmenSan dPz witnast Az skF trAvaliNz,

intradVsiN lFts rFdiN fAst... pjUD,

fYliN t solid, t SX QD hOldiNz,

IziN dens... in n Qt,

prOgrAmz pAsiN TrM us intO nQ,

sOkiN QD riAliti, kantrOliN QD rFziN,

pAraleliN sensiz,

riHmik tOnz fEliN t kAmDa H impPt,

endlasli.

enJinz twistiN tFm, prObiN rMdimants,

kjUDiositiz fFDd

wiH H intDkPs v SXd skPciN,

OpaniN Old gEtwEz t a nV riliJan,

awEkaniN QD ignDant sxkamspekSan.

V wOv lFts intM H elamants,

entDd kulDz intM vqdz sIkiN Opan,

lEst mEJik intM cEnJiN sIzanz,

n brIHd liviN intM brEziDz v fFD.

sIiN fEsiz lost wiHin H web v grId'z ilMZan

(FsiN H wiHin from wiHQt),

V gEv itxnal trMHz t H mFndz v cildran,

n t krops sIkiN sunSFn.

hRvistiN mOmants wun,

grIviN wiZanz spqld,

V blest FdWz bijond lFf's bRk,

strOkiN dEz bifP H kumiN

v HAt nOn t HOz sIdiN redi.

flOtiN on a cEnJiN X,

cRJiN wYtD inkOdid bifP spriN,

SEpiN H webz v lEz' itxnal lFf,

V set lFd'z nV destini in H windz,

mikst H rEnz,

n woct itxniti twist nV.

in jP soN v lFf F diskuvDd nV histDiz:

F bikEm H wEkiN kares v feHDd soN,

heraldiN nV lFf ritxnd in H freS v tadE,

F bikEm grAnit tPn from H krMsifiks v xT's wMm,

rent from H sFlans v a niliam jCz,

F bikEm H hIliN enDJiz v EnSant Oks,

grOn fP mI, n xTt fP V,

F bikEm a mAgpF'z lAst gUdbF,

invizibal tCz salMtiN feHD n blud

kansVmd bF Asfolt's spIdiN wP,

F tuct H AkaSik rekPd v H minMSa v lFf n deT,

hOli wIv wiHin H txn v lFf's rIbxT.

F woz dul, F woz dAzliN, F woz juN, F woz Old,

F woz evri luv kist, n evri hRt skPnd,

evri prED lost bitwIn ablIkli hF n desalat lO,

F woz pEn trAnzmVtid intM luv, intM Jq,

lEDd TrM lFf intM dFmenSanz unsIn,

F woz hevan, F woz hel, kArid in V, kArid in mI,

H Rk v mF wiNz inkumpasiN mP HAn His txn.

F sY opDtVniti wEtiN wiHin skPct windz v pEn;

sANkcUeri'z oltD on H sAndz v filmd iNk,

bijond bIdlas lFvz lost wiHin sIpia'z blIct ripOz,

vEld in H dusk, H nFt, n H rEn.

F sY a mesiJ bijond bFbal, cxc P krId,

t mEl P fImEl'z sevanT split - inkRnESan'z pOz,

trAnzfiksiN kanfVZan'z breT v lFf n hOp,

a promis v pIs n luv t evri Opan hAnd;

a promis v a liviN bijond kopjUlESan,

lFf, deT, n lFf,

bijond nQ, wil bI, woz, n evD iz,

bijond grMp sOl'z obzDvESanz insFd Qt,

hAnd fPJd in itxniti'z rivolviN sxkal v Jq.

F swuN wiH H pendjUlam v lFf,

unsentDd, jet sentDd in H stil v dIp gOld,

itxniti'z klok runiN in, runiN Qt,

vxJin n Opan in H Txd v Ic hRt,

bijond H soN v HAt cEmbD P its vxs.

F bikEm soft nV bOn from evri juN muHD'z brest,

fIdiN mP HAn hx cFld - if Onli SI nV,

F tuct xT, wind, mMn, distant fFD in H stRz,

n sY H deT v evriTiN HAt grOz,

n H bxT v evriTiN HAt ripItidli dFz.

**

/Fvan /sAndDz, 1999